Lost in time

The breathtaking view each time never fails to stun me. Yes, I am in love with the beach, I am in love with the sound of the waves that kisses the shore, I am in love with the salty smell that I long for when I am back in the city.. the sand so fine that it stuck on me even after I pat it away.. the sun that rises and sets over the beautiful water scenery and landscapes each day.. and the starry skies at night that will never look the same over the city lights. 

So for when I am on my dream-like state in a paradise, I stop counting the seconds, the minutes, the hours and the days until it ends and only start keeping track of the time when another lovely dream is set to begin again.

Start counting now.. cause I'm fulfilling my more than 16-year-old dream, my fantasy.. come sweet November it is, I might be flying solo!!!

cheers,
♥A

5yr-old time capsule

It's time to relive the days. er.. what? Lol I didn't even notice these 5 years that came, went and gone by. Was it just yesterday when we were stressing about our thesis? Am I really this old?

*5years after* That old!! LOL

Opening this little tube was fun and unexpectedly, revealing. I started to think how changed I am from 5 years ago at the time when I think nothing but how to enjoy doing school because I was not really a fan of studying although I did good with it at the time. I can't really say I changed a lot since then because I'm still the sort of happy-go-lucky girl from before. I live by what I can and spend more time in doing things that I believe is fun. What hit me the most was that, I am not getting any younger and still I am stuck with playing and enjoying life. I forgot to think of the balance between priorities for the future and playing at present. What to do???

finally the sun rose

Indeed I love the sky.. gray, cloudy, clear, or whatever it looks like I'm forever compelled to look up and notice the sky. Nice weather or not it's still amusing how each day is different to the eye than the one past it. And I'm talking in circles not even sure if I make sense. I just love it that is all.

Amusing thy self,
♥A

coffee inspiration

I love the quote instantly when I saw it posted in Facebook. It rings reality at some point and full of positivity. Why surround yourself with angry people when there were dozens of other happy people? And then maybe you can be that another soul to make someone happily elated.

for the love of coffee..

weddings and bells

The topic came up one time out of the blue. Maybe we were just bored in the office or too sleepy we needed to talk about something more interesting. My officemate/friend fancied the song "Polly" by The Melody. It is a Korean song, an official soundtrack of Coffee Prince (oh i love that drama! *swoon*) She told me, for her, it was the song she'll like for her dream wedding and I so agree with her. I think the song has the melody of someone floating in love! It has the tone of the wedding bells! We talked about weddings and related stuff and that's when I realized, it's a far away dream for me. I definitely love the idea but not yet in the near future. So I guess, at the moment I am the person who dreams of it and in love with the idea of being wedded with the groom no where to be found yet.

There is always this talk about the so-called love life of everybody at work and I am one of those who have nothing to contribute. I'm not at all talking about my private life in here! But in truth yes, I really have nothing to say. I've been single since forever and it doesn't bother me at all, not at the moment I guess. Not in a rush to anything, I am yet to feel the liberty deserved at my age and I wouldn't want to jeopardize it with some other commitment. I do believe myself when I say that I am most contented with myself at present. I am enjoying my solitude sometimes and the company of family and friends. As my officemate puts it, I may be just waiting for the time that my prince charming will come up to me and slip on a glass slipper. Such a fairytale-ish way to say it. At one time she says I am the type who waits for one and marry the one. Hopeless romantic with the undying love on the side! surely That's me! So cool she notices it! And I thought, really some people are so observant you would be surprised with how much they knew about you more than you knew yourself.

I love my fun-filled life today and I intend to max it to the fullest! Caring not a thing but myself and the few people I care about. I fancy a few crush but no one I'd like to pursue. My friends call me snob most of the time, brushing off flirty people but then I'm not just the person to flirt with and test the waters. I am one of those people who wants a sure one and makes sure it is the secured choice. Too careful I guess. Maybe someday it'll change, maybe not but for now I am just me, the happy me. ^_^

*dreamy*

It's a rainy Friday today.. I overslept a bit than usual and I still feel sleepy now..
but somehow I feel good.. ^_^

When I woke up, it's really weird that I thought.. I wonder.. I wish..

Suncheon-man (Suncheon bay) Feb. '12

hmm.. I'd love to live in a book.. a book with endless happy endings! ♥
like trailing the endless waters of the sea to the ocean.. How convenient it will be if what's to come is all written in a book.. Mishap will just be one part of a chapter and eventually everyone moves on. Seems so easy.. I wish it could be just as easy as that. But I guess, living life would be boring..

Baby Proof by Emily Giffin

Needless to say, how can one chase for happiness if one can't recognize it. But how do I know happiness? I'm not sure if I am really happy in its real essence or I 'think' I am happy.. how do I tell the difference? er... I sound depress.. lol. But clearly I'm not.. just a thought to ponder today.. ^_^

Fifty Shades Darker by EL James

no fun..ranting for the nth time..

So.. It's burning my patience.. you are really getting in my nerves! The very same person.. er.. really now.. really..?? It makes me feel uncomfortable..I know we're friends..I know you.. *sigh* I do understand you and that we are two different individuals.. but hello??? even just for a moment, can't you be in any way just a little bit considerate and take the initiative to do something helpful?? I really feel bad about it and now I don't know how to talk to you or how to act with you anymore.. it just makes me so uncomfortable to be around you.. that I feel I have started to keep my distance from you to avoid unnecessary chats.. we'll never be the same again, I think.. It's definitely awkward.. how's that? and so I've been told and yes, I do know but somehow I still believed.. but now, I don't know.. maybe we're not meant to be close as friends as before and so I know we're really not the same.. we don't mix.. we can't..

hay naku.. er.. just don't act like you care if you really don't care.. ang plastic lang e! and I hate it!!

just a wondering thought...

Loving and Missing...

*If you're missing a lot,,

Malinta Tunnel '10

then perhaps you're loving a lot..*

♥

Life

LIFE.

Family makes it comfortable.

Friends make it interesting.

Strangers make it different.

♥

Pondering...

2010 was the year for fun.
-- and I had TONS of it! --

2011 was the year to slow down.
-- interestingly, i did slow down a bit and tried to learn things on my list.. --

And 2012 is the year to CHOOSE!
-- Something to think about.. and something to look forward to! --

May this year be great, full of surprises and life changing! For a happy year ahead! For family, friends and happiness! Cheers!♥



aigoo! reliving the memories!!

Signs of aging?!!!
Reminiscing alot... and lots of melodrama moments with girlfriends!! lol. I'm alarmed! hahaha...

This past few days.. or should I say weeeks? months?? haha!
Ralei and I couldn't help but reminisce and turn back the good ol' times... and yet we're just like in our 20's?? hahaha... Is it the gloomy weather? the lovely atmosphere at night whenever we meet and walk around Ayala's vicinity? stress at work? or we just miss our dearest friends? I guess this is hugely brought by pure boredom and deprivation from going out of town that I can't help but rant about it. And yet I admit I have not much of the "time".. everyday language classes, everyday work.. weekends' social life... weekends' dates with family and friends... toinks! I got my 'hectic' but not my 'excitement'.. I think I lost it somewhere and somehow I still couldn't find it.. =( and so we've been talking about this and that.. Planning and thinking.. wishing and hoping... for this certain something to come up.. But I don't know. it seems difficult to find something or should I say have something worth looking forward to.

Sending SOS!! make me feel thrilled LIFE! make it exciting will you?!

♥

one happy day ^_^

Today, I just want to recall and remind myself how lucky I am..
As this week is not progressing as good as I imagined, today exceeded my expectations. Being recognized and rewarded feels good! Always! Especially if you earned it.. Being grateful for everyday's blessings has been a habit, be it the worst day of my days, I count little things that matter more.. So when I came across a huge one, it is more difficult to express my gratitude. Hence, I can't contain my cheerfulness!! Celebrating life as it is! Fun! Fun!

I still love my sunshine!!! (Bohol '11)

♥

ugh!

I just like money....period! However, I never liked money-talks!


Today, turned out to be annoying.



Today, turned out to be sad.



Today, turned out to be gross.



Today, turned out to be really boring!!!



Planned trip to TH.. I really want to go.. How bad I really want to go depends on what I'll decide later today. I really like planning trips, it excites me that it can make me all day happy.. Yet, here goes the part I least dear to do. Asking for permission?? or just informing them? I don't know which is which, but whenever I do something, go somewhere, I, more often than not, seek mom and dad's approval. I hate it when we do the money-talk and I don't want to talk back just because it's just money! for goodness sake! I know they care much but then I do care much too.. with my own pleasure (not reasonable enough, i guess.. lol.)...
* my favorite quote really suites me, eh? * hahaha! Anyway, I am not yet done! tsss....

Another thing I feel bad about today, was that I didn't make it to Rea's departure.. =( She left later today for the US of A. And it's sad not having been able to say my goodbyes and regards. Wasn't able to send my love with her.. But then I wish her to be always safe there. I am missing her!!! and will be missing her more..

Well, the gross part of the day, was a person peeing in a public place. I knew that a wall can be a urinal for men. Yet today, I learned that even a bus's wheels can be a toilette! tsktsk! ew! Not ashamed of peeing while the bus is on a halt!


what a day....!



♥

you make me feel sad

Sunset in La Union (San Juan) '10

I basically want everything! Define greedy?? lol. But really I don't want everything.. I just want few things for myself, few things to pursue for myself, and few things I want to do for myself. Travel a lot, learn a lot, know a lot, see a lot, do a lot.. I know it would take so much time for me to do everything like that, but still I want what I want.. I'll do it each at a time, or two at a time, could be three if time and my pocket permits. lol. I want to be busy with my life! woot! *sounds selfish*  hahaha..=D Yet I can't because life is pretty much complicated and people should THINK a lot; consider much of the what could and what might be; see the options, which is better and what could be worst. You have the 'family' stuff, the 'friends' stuff, the 'love' stuff, the 'money' stuff, the 'work' stuff, and the list goes on.. Life is a handful and it's either you love it or you hate it! (Life is also expensive by the way.. ^.^)

I can be careless and carefree, clumsy as hell, unimaginably crazy and impulsive but at the end of the day, what fulfills everything else is what I have become after everything I've done with or without thinking. SEIZE THE MOMENT! Be it in hell of a bad day or the most embarrassing one or the shittiest or the loveliest day one can be.. after all, today will be always tomorrow's yesterday.. And yesterday's could have been will never be today's would be. Dang! just laugh it off and feel grateful to have at least one thing to be thankful for..

Today's not my best day, not even half of a good day.. however, it's still a DAY. n_n

♥

i chipped my nail polish!

One of the two things I'm vain about myself is my nails.. I want it either cleanly trimmed, trimmed as in short short, or perfect with polish! And today, I chipped my nail polish! err.. not a great start for work. (I feel like screaming: 'polish remover pleassseee..?!!!') tsk! I'm saving it til Saturday, and now it's ruined.. =( I can't even upload photos of my nails since my pc at home got busted! really now.. How unlucky of me.. 

Talking about nails and polish.. I remember when Aira and I were kids and my older sister was on her teens, she at times do our nails. Among the three of us, I am the most.... most picky, most maarte some says.. lol. And this is what happened. My Ate was done doing Aira's nails and some of my other female cousins and now it's my turn. She did mine with polka dots design. If I remember it correctly it's a combination of blue and white, white being the dots in my blue painted nails. It took a while doing my nails as she well know how perfectionist I can be. I want things in particular. I want it almost parfait, atleast in my eyes! haha.. Oh well.. Bottomline, just a few minutes after finishing my nails, I removed it! And swear, I think that time Ate would've wanted to kill me.. lol. It's not that I don't like it or I don't appreciate the effort, it just so happened that I accidentally ruined it. My bad, I know. But I can't help feeling annoyed when I look at it. It bothers me a lot knowing there's something wrong with it. XP Guess, I'm such a person from before and til now. And even now I remember asking Aira to do my nails sometimes and while doing my nails she'll say, 'kinakabahan talaga akong lagyan ka ng nail polish. pano pag di mo gusto? ay naku. pinagpapawisan ako sayo!' .. haha.. and my reply is always, 'ok lang yan.. madali naman burahin!'.. lol. Recalling those times, I feel mean and ruthless. Now that I do my nails, it annoys me more if it's ruined!

♥