another loss..

We heard the news that Tita Nene had passed away from cancer. That fast and I don't know what to think. All I've managed to do is file a leave for absence at work and support our dearest cousins with whatever comfort we can offer them. It is a sad time for the family. Truly, it is a huge push on my pregnant cousin and that worries us as well.

After a while of absorbing the news, I realized, still I don't know how to deal with this. It's not that I haven't lost anyone important to me. I know people come and go, it's how life should be yet another loss is always different from the last one. Is it because each and everyone holds a different tie on you? Each holds a different candle lighting with you along the way? Each grows in you and occupies a certain part of you that cannot be replaced? It hurts and it feels bad realizing you have much more to share with those people but still in each moment nobody realizes it until there came the time that it's too late. Guess life is really short for immaterial non-senses but how can you filter those non-sense if at the moment you cannot grasp the reality that some day soon or whenever they are bound to leave you behind? How do you remind yourself the importance of one person if you are too absorbed of your own needs and wants to notice them at all? People say this, people say that, but do really people act on it?

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Sad and gloomy but still keeping the happy façade.. We said our goodbyes and good words for our Tita Nene.

"The sun shone when it's needed even with the threat of the rain.. Ending today with a relief that you are in pain no more and the left memory of a brave woman we once knew as Tita Nene.."

♥A